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Assalamualaikum

Duduududuududuuduuu lalalala

I am so happy today as I finally realizes (after few weeks) that I can power myself on surplus of positive charge over negative charge. Clap clap! hahaa

May the odds (with goodness) be with me. :D 

Never underestimate the struggle within ourselves, it is the most powerful booster in this life!

May Allah eases our days and nights with His blessing. aamiinn

Of Phases in Life

Bismillah.

Being a girl or I would say a big girl, hahaa in my twentieth years of life. This is one phase where all the conflicts, interest and priorities are mixing up. This is not good but it is a reality.

To make things all clear and get organized, we learn from mistakes and we ask the elders almost about everything.

Moving forward, this is a phase where true friends stay, connect back with old friend, do something to please people around us and got confuse between needs and wants (sometimes). Here is a phase we learn to differentiate what is important and what is not (from our mistakes).

Feeling super insecure towards future career, partner and life is super normal for a super normal human being. But being normal is boring, eh? hahaa
Undoubtedly, we have uncertainty about our future but fear not, don't make the future expectation to ruin our current time. Of course, what we do now determines what our future is. Its just that don't let the all so called uncertainty and expectation limit our dreams now.

Being a girl in this phase is a golden opportunity to shine and to learn as much as we want! This phase of life is one white canvas for us to decorate and paint it with colors. We learn from doing and we cannot skip of try and error method. Let me say it again, this is normal process to learn. To be not normal person or I called it super awesome person is we have to accept our flaws, learn from mistakes and always being awesome. hahaa

Work hard and stay humble.

This life is one chapter of phases from our eternal journey as human. May Allah eases our journey towards the end.

This is me after several plastic surgery and wearing blue contact lens. (Fake fact!) hahaha

hilang

Bismillah.

It has been 3 months ago since my last blog post.
hahaha
I got carried away in my super busy student life.. i think so. haha

Biasa la, nak dekat final ni, barula nak feeling tulis tulis balik. hahaa
But, I miss to write actually. I tried keeping a diary but I can not coop with it for long time. Too afraid that someone will read it. hahaa lol, paranoid gile.

Minggu ni rasa kosong. Jiwa kosong.

Lepas balik dari cuti (I went home to Terengganu! yayy!), yang 2 hari cuti tuh. Nahh, not really related with the balik kampung pun sebenarnya.

Its just that. I need to find myself again. Mana semangat aku yang dulu kalau kau nak lawan sure kalah dengan semangat aku. Kuat nya semangat tu dulu. Mungkin sebab harapan dan impian sudah ada yang tercapai (mungkin). Ruang bersama ayah dan emak, susah mereka penat lelah aku dapat lihat.

Truth to be tell, from my 3 years (almost) as degree student, I only satisfied with my own academic achievement for that one short semester. For that particular semester,,,all the hard work, entertainment-less day and one solid aim was paid beautifully. I still have 3 long semester to back up what I already lost along the way.

Benarla kata Tuhan dalam al-Quran. "Nasib sesuatu kaum itu tidak akan berubah selagi kaum itu tidak merubahnya" (lupa ayat mana).

To be honest, like truly honest. I have love-hate relationship with Instagram, Facebook, all types of movie and bed.

I really hate them up to the point that I want to get rid all of it. Like deleting all the accounts and movies and sleeping on the floor!

But I can't!

I have to be realistic. I must change my view on those sakit mata jiwa raga penyebab kepada masalah aku. Discipline! Discipline! Discipline!

Wassalam.

*some revision for a test tomorrow. tata.